Fenergy.

Fenergy, n, 1. (common usage) Focus-Energy, being both focused on what you are doing and also loud and excited about it. Theater term, used to describe mental and physical conditions. "I don't have that much fenergy; the show isn't going to look good," or "Today we need fenergy, we should play Mirror." 2. (other usage, livvy word) Fake-Energy, pretending to have energy. What a person with fenergy really wants to do is go to sleep. People are known to go through shows, entire days, even, on fenergy alone. "Unless we get some fenergy, our show is going to suck," or "If you can't have energy, at least have fenergy."

I am surviving on fenergy, 2. It's all fake. All if it. My interior mental condition is more like: sick, tired, dead, coughing, asleep, stressed. Thanks to my almost endless supply of fenergy, I will be able to come to school tomorrow. I will see you then. Come to our show, if you would like. I mean I guess you should but. I don't know. No, actually you should be there. Yeah. It's decided. You're going.

Magic Juice (ha)

I just watched Easy A.

The guy, Todd, he has a TBA part in the pre-preduction Thirteen Reasons Why Movie. He would make a great Clay, just saying.

Anyway.

I'm drinking battery acid/ cough drops. It's kinda weird. Well at least that is what it tastes like. According to Sofia and Ms. Cernera, I've never actually drunk battery acid (or cough drops, but I know what they taste like.) It has healing powers and I need to be healed because I am pretty sick and we have a SHOW TO PUT ON IN A FEW DAYS, CRAP. Come. Or don't. Either one. I'll hopefully be okay by then.

*wince* this is actually really sour. I don't know, lemon flavored. But I mean like, the aftertaste is like a cough drop, but a sour lemon one. I guess that's where the battery acid comes in? The before taste (like, what it tastes like on your tounge before you swallow) is actually kind of like orange pinnapple juice, you know? But then it's lemony. Whatever. It has magical healing powers. Mmmm.


My blog currently looks like crap now, I'm sorry, it needs a makeover BAD but I haven't had the time. Just ignore the ugly horrible gray... god. Actually I'm going to change it now to something generic. Okay.

Digital Video

MY. HEART. STOPS. when you look at me. JUST. ONE. TOUCH. now baby I believe. THIS. IS. REAL. so take a chance and don't ever look back, DON'T EVER LOOK BACK gonna get your heart racing in my skin tight jeans be your teenage dream tonight...

What does this have to do with digital video? Ha. You are so out of the loop. Ha.

I finished Harlem, now on to my other tragedies

My dad said to me today: "You should take these months as an example that you can't do everything, and do it well."
I replied: "I think I did pretty well."

I forgot the word "considering."

Haha, you should see my cover, it was on Photoshop, and yeah I took maybe 15 minutes tops on it. It's SO messy. You can't REALLY tell unless you look closely. So don't. And I believe I have invented a new genre of poetry, I have named it "30 Second Suck Poems" and I write a lot of them for school. I HATE/dislike poetry. I like it when I'm reading it, or writing it for fun. But I can't write on call. Especially anything good. God.

But everything looks kinda nice and so yeah. Just don't read ANYTHING. DON'T. Because these have been my goals for the project:

1. Do the bare minimum.
2. Make it look like you didn't do the bare minimum.

As a result, the writing is complete crap and the presentation is pretty. Because writing (well) takes more time than making things look good. For me. I expect to hear a full report on every one of YOUR projects' tomorrow. And I mean, like, where you bought your glitter paper, and if there is no glitter paper, why the heck did you not get glitter paper.


My word order is kinda weird/formal, I'm deciding to blame it on my keyhole response essay and on the German test, because words in German are arranged weirdly. By weirdly I mean not Englishly.

Stress Levels are High

Is this normal? Is this okay? It doesn't really really seem to be getting much better. I forgot the play: it should end at around the same time as TSA architecture.

Thank god.

I also forgot homework, that goes until around the same time as end of year.

I'm very lucky I'm not Marvin, and can't think of all of this at once, or I would certainly be depressed. Right now, I just take it in small doses. It was hard to make this picture. Stressful. It didn't really help. Well, I definitely appreciate that dropping point after the 3rd quarter when procrastinating wouldn't be AS horrible. Oh god. I'm gonna die, I really am. Look at all that WHITE. Plus, all of the black is filled with "unforeseen events." So I'm pretty much booked for the rest of the year.

ps, that is a timeline. just clarifying.

Song Lyrics

So on buzz everyone keeps posting song lyrics, and people (hi, anna) either know them or look them up right away and post the next line or the title or artist or whatever. I think this is fun. I will post some lyrics that I KNOW, I won't cheat. How many can you get? You can look them up, by the way.

I'm the singer
I'm the singer in the band
you're the loser
i won't dismiss you out of hand

you scream "good five, four good,"
and i say: "yeah four and five are good."

How can you have any pudding if you don't set your meat?!

KC:All of those stories, of course are pure poppycock that proliferated online.
JM: I do it all the time, makin up s--- is so sublime.
KC: But that of course is little solace for the reader
who simply wants to surf the web
without getting pulled under by a riptide of lies.
JM: You can't protect the web from a--holes like me, shawaytee!

I've got a strong urge to fly
But I've got nowhere to fly to

I don't wanna think anymore

We ate the food... We drank the wine
Everybody having a good time
Except you
You were talking about the end of the world.

Your hitler hairdo is making me ill.



Yeah that's all I can think of right now.

Inception

Yeah I saw it. It was awesome. It was really really interesting. I think I enjoy movies like that, like Boy A and The Social Network, where you can't just enjoy the movie you have to really think while you're watching. It's so much fun. It was CONFUSUNG, though! I loved it! It was like... so can they die in the fourth level, and are they real , and did he die, and what was that scene in the end about, anyway, and that whole limbo thing, explain? Pure fun, I'm telling you. Pure enjoyment. You should see it so we can hypothesize together. By the way, I can't watch a movie without wikipedia, and I know know that the guy who played Lucentio/ Cameron in 10 Things I Hate About You (I think I mentioned how dorky and adorable he was in my last post) was in it. I knew I recognized him the whole movie and I HAD to check.

The end. The end was crazy. Answer me now, was it about to tip? Was it about to tip? Wobbling. But did it fall down or pick itself up again? Ah good movie.