I still maintain that he kicked himself in the balls.

No way. No freaking way. Why is there such beauty in this world; sometimes I get sO jealous of everything. Read. That greenish one. She's just great, isn't she? Lauren Oliver? Before I Fall. Delirium. Very great. I guess this one wasn't AS good as Before I Fall but wow... it was good. Such a great idea.


Sorry if my judgement is a little off, I just finished the Twilight series again again and am still in a totally different world. A great world, I mean, I like Twilight, but a very unreal world. Everything I see is Jacob Edward Bella and the comparisons are everywhere. It's kind of weird but it's worth it, totally. I can see where the obsession could come from. You know, on the back of one of her books there's a review an it's something like "People do not want to just read Meyer's books; they want to climb inside them and live there." This is true. Or at least, it is by the second time you've read them.

Also: judgement may be off because I just read I Am Number Four, a bad book with an overall bad plot with bad characters. It had a fantastic starting idea, however, which made me put some faith in the movie to make it slightly better, you know, take some liberties.... Turns out they did. And they just didn't make it better, at all, just focused on making the people hotter (and kind of failing, actually, the guy was just weirdly old) and making the clothes look worn (also failing.) Sad. I had a lot of faith in that story. It's such a good idea! And you know. A fantastic tagline. Three of us are dead. I am number four. I am next. Fantastic. Such potential. It really makes me sad.

Even though I am telling you that my judgement may be a little screwed, you should still listen to me and read all of the above books minus the one immediately above.

As a side note, I just watched 10 Things I Hate About You, which as we all know is a modern rewrite of The Taming Of The Shrew with Heath Ledger in it, score. It's actually very funny and much less scary than it was to me in 6th grade (in terms of jokes, etc.) Bianca was ugly though. Lucentio was kinda adorable, though a little delusional.

Hope I keep you all entertained, because all I'm getting is no sleep. Look at the time. Gotta get better at this accepting that the resolution to the book I'm reading cab wait until the morning, as can my reaction to the resolution.

I got off topic. Just read. You know.

Fictional Characters/Twilight

I've been having trouble with my fictional character obsessions recently. It's becoming an issue. Not an actual issue, just a little weird. I'm in love with Darren Criss, who is of course Harry Freakin Potter (justified) but is also playing a very gay man on Glee and it's just WEIRD. He's so cute though, that I'm okay with it. Plus he can sing. And write. Etc.
Also, Stephanie Meyer. You really can't deny her talent. Okay, time out, before you start having "eeww twilight" thoughts I'm going to give you a quiz. Raise your hand if you still have not read the series. Okay, now, if that's true, you aren't allowed to say "ewww twilight", first of all.  It is cheesy. It is a bit ridiculous. Bella is minorly obsessed/messed up/etc. It does not suck. It's a very good series. It makes you happy. Wait, I never finished my quiz. After you've raised your hand, answer:
a. It sounds stupid, so I've never read it.
b. I've heard it was good but I'm the kind of person who doesn't jump on the bandwagon.
c. I'm not reading it because everyone else has read it (yes this is different than b)
d. Haven't gotten around to it yet, but I probably will soon.
e. It's too long, otherwise I would read it.

If your answer is any of the above than you should read it and stop being crazy. Did you know that I refused to read Harry Potter for the longest time because everyone else was reading it? Do you know where that got me? Nowhere. It took till like 2nd Grade for me to read them. No way. See? Not worth it.

It's a good series. It really is. Right now I finished Eclipse (number three) and just got over the one part of the series that I love Jacob enough to actually hate Bella. All the other parts I only mildly dislike her for thinking everything is her fault. During this part of Eclipse and the begining of Breaking Dawn, everything actually IS her fault and Edward is just being ridiculous for trying to make her feel better when obviously she deserves it. Only part of the series I see the appeal of Team Jacob. Taylor Lautner's my man. Ha. Zefron. Don't worry about a thing, I would never do that to you. I'm team dumbledore. (wait, dumbledore aint a fictional character!) Anywayyyyy I don't like the movies, I don't know where that came from. Hmmm avpm?? Noooo. Okay. So yeah.

While I do think that everyone should finish the series just so that they can communicate with the people of our age, it's not something to be obsessed over. It's not the best thing that's ever happened to the world. But you can't listen to what Urban Dictionary has to say about it. I go on urban dictionary and look up things like twilight, justin bieber, blogger, etc, when I feel like looking at some trolls. I'm so proud of myself for just callign them idiots and moving on. It really is so disappointing. Anyway again. You can't say that the writing is bad, because it's not, it makes you want to be there. You can't say that the plot is bad, because it's dramatic and exciting, kinda, at least, though it does kinda repeat throughout the books. And you can't say that the characters are bad, because there are people like Jacob, Alice, and I don't know maybe someone else somewhere that actually have realistic feelings that make sense. Then again, you can't say that any of those things are the best either. It's just a book. It's just a book. Don't obsess over it, and don't hate on it. Like Justin Beiber! He has talent, but not enough to be obsessed with. Get it? Yes? Good. Go out there and read some Twilight. You know I've read the first one 3 times, the THIRD one 3 times, the 4th one almost three times, and you wanna know how many times I've read the 2nd one? MAYBE ONE AND A HALF. It sucks. I just skip over it. I pretend it's not. even. there. It confused me for a second, going from one to three without stopping and considering what happens in 3, but I got over it pretty fast. It's just like, Oh, Jacob's a werewolf, right, I forgot about that, and Oh cool, Bella's not suicidal any more. Pretty awesome, I think.

Anyway back to my fictional characters bit. You all know about Rudy. He's perfect. And Jacob and Edward. I'm cooler than bella, so I can have both. Ummmm who else. Andrew Garfield, who's not necessarily a fictional character but you know what I mean. Dum dum dum Ian from The Host (sorry, more stephanie meyer. Sadly almost the same plot, but a little better, and a better romance interest and ending. An ending with the person you actually like, sorry, spoiler alert, btw. read it.) WHo else. Tryin to think.... right Artemis Fowl. Duh. Sorry about that. He's gorgeous and a genius. Got a little crazy there. But I'm okay. Come on I could've sworn I had a longer list before. Help? Holden whatever his name is, Catcher in the Rye, love him, he's such a DORK. He's so funny. Cute, but pathetic. Haha. Um. Toby Turner. Youtuber. The Gregory Brothers. Shut up, Evan's married, I don't care, Micheals pretty awesome. Lookem up. You know, they're the autotune the news people. Obama. Shawtayyy Shashashawtaayyayayaaa. Love. Ummmmm more youtubers I know.... DUH jake and amir are gorgeous, but no one can really come between them. Such a love hate relationship going on there you just have the watch the whole season to understand why I'm wanting Amir's bestfriendness dreams to come. Jake can be a douche. But they're like Quirlldemort. Jake, open your eyessssss. Stupid. Anyway. I think that's about it. You know, plus Ed Kennedy and all the Zusaks and the Westerfelds and the I DON'T KNOW Calder Piggots, no, he's not cool... but whatever. Those people. I'm such a polygamist. See what I did there? Back to some other book. Books are good. Books are good.

I. Can't. Help. Myself, I'm addicted to a LIFE OF MATERIAL.

This post is either gonna ve really short or really long, depending on if I'm planning on talking about the wedding I went to adt night. Probably not. It's late. Not that pate, but late when yesterday you were up till 2 dancing and then woke up at 9... Anyway.

Lady Gafa is the best. I've been listening to ber album the past few days and her songs are awesome.

BOYS BOYS BOYS... we like boys with cars... BOYS BOYS BOYS... Buy us drinks in bars...
And we're in heaven-- H. E. A. V. E. N. disco heaven.
Chase you down until you love me...
Nothing else left to say, eh, eh.
Cherry cherry boom boom BABY WILL YOU BLOW MY HEART UP.
don't be a drag... Just be a queen...

Yeah she's great and very catchy. Can't get then out of my head.

By the WAY anyone game: http://www.scriptfrenzy.org/ I know you are. It's not NaNoWriMo but it's SCRIPTS! scripts are fun! we should do this.

I love NYC pizza. Just putting it out there. Anyone gone to Lambardis? Somethibg like that... It's amazing. We didn't go there today but I've been and it's awesome and I wanted to go back but no....

I'll talk more about this later. Hopefully I won't get sick. It was all worth it, though.

The Message

"They're green now, buddy."
"Thanks."
Driving.

Weird-shit magnet.

"Just do me a favor and remember one thing," he says. "Have faith, Ed, alright?"
I search the coffee mug, but there's none in there.

The power and the glory.

Sometimes people are beautiful. Not in looks. Not in what they say. Just in what they are.

It takes a lot of love to hate you like this.

I won't be okay just for the sake of it. Not anymore.




I Am the Messenger. Never before have you seen such beauty. Beautiful. It's fantastic. It's for boys and girls and adults and the people like Ritchie and the people like Sophie and people like Milla or even Gavin or maybe Ed himself. What is your life? How is it? What are you DOING with it? Ed, I love your story. I need to hear about real people that actually exist being as beautiful as you and everyone you helped. I want an ace in the mail. I want to stop a rape. Or make a girl beautiful with just an empty box. Or cure someone's deepest sadness. I want life to count. To not see a dead man when you look in the mirror, you need to have lived in your life. Markus Zusak. You are the best author. I cannot honestly think of anyone else who's books have affected me this much. We all know what The Book Thief does to me. Rudy. Liesel. How many times did she have to say goodbye? Fighting Ruben Wolfe. Getting the Girl. Not even my type of book. Probably for boys. But guess what, they made me cry. All of them do. And what more could you ask for than a book that makes you weep, laugh, and see the world more clearly?

I Am the Messenger. Beauty. Beauty. Gritty. Hate.

But it's all so beautiful.

NYSTSA 30 is a major part of my computer time

My valentine's day was pretty awesome, I'm sorry if any of yours was not. Adri you goddess of love. "I'll bring LOVE.." hahaha that was funny.
But really it was fun. It was like a normal day, with candy. I underestimated myself, a lot, again, on the algebra quiz, and talked about Pride and prejudice in tech with esther. My pencil has now been laser engraved to say "I'M IN A RAGE!!!" and therefore life is good. TSA tomorrow. Not going to play practice. None of the music teachers there: no blocking. Come and get me if we actually do go on stage. Ha, go on stage. Play practice. That's funny. Hey, Soph, we really need to get this architecture thing done. Especially the heating part. Energy efficient... Green.... Aeehhh why that's such a boring thing to think about. Aesthetics are soooo much more important, whatever.
Benvolio is cool, but Romeo is more pathetic. Esther wished he took his shirt off more than Benvolio does, in the movie. Leonardo, I mean. As Romeo. Let's just stare at that tv now, shall we? Haha German. Titanic. He looks like he's two. Mr snell. Titanic. Schmalzig.

I'm making a lot if sense to the general public tonight.

Let's Just Revisit This For a Second

...because I am wearing this jacket that says Salvatore and I am deeply into this night with this Nick person and I am occasionally having really, truly, pornographic, thoughts about him.

How could anyone not like a book with a sentence like that? It's not even possible.

Everyone Is Entitled to Their Own Wrong Opinion

I just read a review of Ransom My Heart, an adult romance historical fiction by Meg Cabot. A person saying that it was too explicit to be so well publicized in her last Princess Diaries book. You know, which are for younger audiences. And then there's Ransom My Heart, for mature adult audiences. It's explicit, I know, and I agree with the author/blogger/reviewer who said that "Mia" should not have "written" this book (see, Meg Cabot pretended that the main character of PD wrote her own novel and published it). 12 year old kids shouldn't be reading that stuff, and I agree. No matter what I did when I was twelve. When was that, last year? No, I wouldn't've wanted to. I do not approve of book banning whatsoever but I know that theres a limit to what's appropriate, and authors need to understand who their audiences are and not treat them in an inappropriate way. If you know they're 12, don't try and make them read an adult romance novel. Authors need limits. And while Ransom My Heart would be a fine adult book, it should not have been "written" and advertised for by a much loved real life small country princess.

But what actually made me kinda mad about this thing was the comments people had left on this person's argument. People said that she was being an idiot for assuming that people who read the princess diaries were 12. Their point was that no one younger than 11 read the PD and no one at the age of 11 read about, I don't know how many are in the series, 13? books that have no educational value in a year. Um. Wrong. So very wrong. When I was 11 and 12 I read like a hundred books a year, and I don't even think I'm exaggerating by that much. Well maybe. But my point is, I could and DID read most of PD in 5th and 6th grade, and then I freaking OUTGREW it. I haven't read like the last 4. In addition to that, I finished Harry Potter, and again, and I probably read Artemis Fowl that year too, wow look at that, and reread both, at least twice. And, oh my god, I remember the plot to all of them! 11 year olds are not immature... They read for fun, yes, not just educational value, but I'm also pretty sure that was also the year I read any holocaust story I could get my hands on. Hitler's biography even, just to see how much of a story was true. and I (gasp) LEARNED. People shouldn't assume that children only read Anne of Green Gables and nothing else in 6th grade. I've never even read that, by the way. But I am the Messenger, anyone? Uh huh. HHGTTG? Yeah. Don't be stupid. 

I'm not generalizing every 11 year old to share my, I admit, crazy, book repertoire, but I am NOT the only one out there who read and finished about 20 series that year and is a better person for it. 

Stupid adults not remembering that we learned how to read long enough ago to be good and fast at it. 
Stupid adults doubting our mind capacity. God I've read 1984! I've read Fahrenheit 451! I've read about four and a half Shakespeare plays, and have yet to get around to but I will read Pride and Prejudice! 

And I still agree with the author, because I have not gone into the adult realistic fiction section THAT OFTEN and I know it's not necessary or even what an kid WANTS to read about. I remember the days when a HUG in a book was romantic. When Ginny blushing at Harry in book two was the cutest thing ever. That was more like tens, never mind. When a perfect kiss on the last page of the book meant a happy ending forever, and it was fantastic. The feeling was fantastic. And an 11 year old doesn't need anything more. They don't need Mia Thermopolis telling them to read explicit and poorly written romance novels. But they have the ability to. And you shouldn't doubt it.




[pssst. YES. Finally a decent blog post about something I actually care about. Sorry for not writing for so long. Really writing, I mean. Sorry it's so late right now, but this needed to come out. So yeah. I'm very happy I actually wrote something. My blog has been quite pathetic recently. Sorry about that.]

Freeeeeee Prooogrammmmss

See that? SEE THAT? ArchiCAD 14, student version. It's like CAD, but Archi. I mean architecture. But I don't know how to make a wall a size I want; you're supposed to drag them to the right size and it's always off for me. I need like dimensioning but I don't know hoowwwww.

Movie Snob? Movie Lover? Movie Obsessed? Yes. All of the Above.

I'm in a total mind boggled mode right now. Totally totally totally brain dead. Movies can do that to me. Good ones.
I've become a bit of a movie snob recently. First there was the weekend where I watched 7 (honestly, not the best, a bit cheesy, you know) movies in a row. I think that was step one to being a movie snob. I mean I've seen tons of movies before, but those 7 really did something to me. They made me feel sadness, love, etc. They controlled my emotions. And those were the only mediocre movies.
Step two was watching the Social Network. I had heard the story, I had read the interview from The New Yorker but I just wasn't ready for the STORY. I understand it's not all true, but it doesn't have to be true. He doesn't have to be a jerk in real life. That's allowed. But the STORY. It blew my mind. And it was told like, da da, da da, and therefore, and DADA and oh my god and oooooooohhhhhh and then AHA and then oh my freaking god and then AHA and then bing bing and then whoaaaaa and it just blew my mind, I'm sorry that that wasn't in any human language. All I wanted to do after watching that movie was curl up in a ball and think about the chain of events that lead to that inconclusive conclusion. If you haven't seen it yet, you should see it.
But I just watched Boy A. I just watched Boy A. Oh my gooooddddd. Those last two sentences just did something to my mind and now it's not working properly anymore. OH MY GOD that ending was not fair. Do NOT read the article on Wikipedia to find out how it ends. Instead, go here and watch it and find out for yourself. Ohhhhhhhhmyyyyyyggoodddddd and it wasn't even about Andrew Garfield. No, I mean, it was totally all him, but like, HIM, as in Andrew, didn't even matter. I mean what he looked like. You know. It was just the story. And the plot. And it was craziness. And it was most definitely rated r, thank you, first time ever, be proud. Ehh.

OH MY GOD FACE MELT MIND DEATH I'm SO FAR GONE (ah, see what I did there?) into the world of non existing people it's really gonna be a problem for me someday. Oh my goddddddd Jack Jack Jack Jack Jack NOO ERIC? ERIC? ERIC? PHILLIIIPPP!?!?! STUPID JERK! Terry you should've... no..... your son, he shouldn't've........ eaahhhhhhhhh. That was a crazy movie. It really messed with me. Really really. Oh, crap. That was well worth 100 minutes of my time. I love this feeling, and it normally happens with books. Don't you just adore it when your mind is dead and all you wanna do is curl up in a ball and think about a plot (normally a book) but instead tell your beloved blog readers about it? Ahhhh this is fantastic my brain is so confused up and racing and shouting and protesting and hoping and wishing and loving ALL AT THE SAME TIME, THAT'S WAY MORE THAN A TEASPOON, HERMIONE aha raise your hand if you got that.

Boy A. Andrew Garfield. Now I have a writer to look up to. It was a book. Not gonna read it, it would be scary. But I'll look up his other ones. And more movies. And oh my god oh my god my god, that was crazy. Please, watch. And tell me about it when you come back, sweetheart, I do enjoy our little chats. aha raise your hand if you got that.

just, again, FACE MELT BRAIN DEATH faint sigh scream. Movies. They do this to me.

The Meaning We Give to Words

And I'm sorry if I haven't written to you in a while. It's just that life gets in the way of living. It's just that my fingers were stuck together. It's just that all the paper in the world caught fire.
You'll forgive me if I haven't written in a while. It's just that all the envelopes made love to dragonflies and now, we cannot bring them down. It's just that time stopped ticking. It's just that all the ink ran clear.
My apologies if I haven't written in a while. It's just that words ran out of letters (these are the last in the bag). It's just that language isn't perfect. It's just, me.


-I Wrote This for You (link in blogs I follow. It's very good. Very very good.)

TSA is my new favorite thing

I'M DOING BOTH! The musical with Ally and Adri and Sarah, etc, too many of you to name, and TSA WITH SOPHIE AND AARON AND JESSIE AND LINDSEY this is going to be awesome.
Sorry for ditching everyone today at play practice, but, yeah, TSA was awesome. CAD. CAD. YES. I love learning. I'm sorry, I really do. And what did you do, sing more? HA. Ha.. No, I heard you blocked something!?!? Good for youuuuuuu which scene? And Lucy, could you bring your script tomorrow so I could copy my stuff over? Thannkkk yyyouuuuu I'm in a marginally better mood than the other day. I'M DOING BOTH! Mr. Buchner talked to Ms. Bintz who I think hates me now but that's okay because I'M DOING BOTH.

I've been web stalking Andrew Garfield (aahhhh) and really wants to have a movie party with all of his movies together. Problem is, they are ALL rated R. Lions for Lambs (which actually sounds kinda good, even though it's not really my kind of movie), Boy A which sounds reallyy intricate and interesting, maybe I'll read the book, Never Let Me Go which also has KEIRA KNIGHTLY in it, double win, and seems like a really weird ground for a movie but also intricate and interesting. Maybe I'll read that book.
But see, they're all rated R. Except for ONE where he isn't even remotely a big part- he's not even in the preview. And plus the Imaginatarium of Doctor Parnassus looks kinda bad with sucky graphics. I'm going to try and find the other ones online anyway. Anyone interested? We could have a planned gmail chat party while watching it. Or, you know, we could all come to my house and connect my dads computer to the tv. But see, they're rated r. We should be sneaky about this.
Is anyone interested? I have serious skill at tracking down free movies online. Experience, mostly from the time I watched 7 in one weekend. 7 movies. Online. I hope I can find one of ANDREWS because everyone knows that his eyes and suits and shirts are the bestest.